Yesterday gus and dalia called me while i was sleeping to come over and i said they could. So gus, dal n jake were over and i was talking to stephen online and he told me there was an open spot for the DSA/Crossbreed show and i was like YEY! but i wouldnt be able to go if dalia n gus had to stay. But they were gonna go to cutler ridge to see a movie with abby. And kris came soon but he went to jakes house.

Stephen, Pierre, Katie, Brandon, myself and the driver will were all in the car. The show was awesome! We missed the first band but from what we heard they completely sucked. The others were kick ass though, crossbreed especially.. THEY WERE AWESOME! DSA kinda disappointed me. They didnt play that much and werent what i was expecting, they were still cool but not what was expected. Stephen and them had to go except Pierre because he had another way getting home. I went home with becca and tanya and my mom picked me up there. My mom and mike went out to eat and when we got home.. SLEEP

I dont get to see Alley... This sucks, that was the only thing that was going to make me happy but now im back to nothing..

Today sucks already. Yesterday didnt suck because i slept the entire day. Im angry at more people than i can count, life is being a bitch to me stress wise, i miss alley but might not be able to see her this weekend. Fuck the world

really shitty day.. Worst day of school year. Tomorrow will suck as well.. Miss Alley.. Cant see her.. Shitty day

People can be really stupid sometimes.. Its quite funny... And yet sad.. really is sad... i pity them

Well anyways not much today.. reg day of school.. Was tired of course... Entire thing with the retard in naples and w/e i dont care but im still pissed. Mike came.. Cat walked in house *shrug*



And alleys cute!!!







i miss her...

Im up 1 am updating my website.. Okay.. Even though being up this late isnt unusual, the reason for being up late is. As most of you know my dad is leaving for korea in exactly 3 hours for now.. For 6 months. Im okay with this because it was a once in a lifetime opportunity and he took it which is totally fine. Its just the side effect of it, leaving home for 6 months. Gah ill miss him even if weve been arguing the past few months.

Yesterday I woke up with a few surprises.. Im taking a nap and all asudden my dad opens the door and says "Gus and Dalia are here" So im kinda just huh? I walk out my door and there they were and i look behind them and i see my grand parents and go HUH?!. So i woke up with 4 new people in the house. They stayed for dinner and left shortly after, kris kept asking to come but i said no and he kept on persisting to come. How rude. W/e thats nothing new though.



You know whats weird, before someone gets a cellphone they basically have no need for it but once they get one its as if you cant live a day without it. Im one of those people. EVERY time i forgot my cellphone something important happens. Okay today i forgot my cellphone and we all went to eat at bahama breeze, but at first my dad was like "Lets go to Dave and Busters" but me and my mom havent been to bahama breeze in a long time and we wanted to go there. I knew while we were eating something was going to happen. And when i come home i called alley to find out shes at dolphin mall.. Wheres Dave and Busters at? DOLPHIN MALL... Well there went my opportunity to see alley because i forgot my cell!!

I swear, im gonna put a red ribbon on my penis to remind me to always bring my cell phone. Grr.. She shot an ak-47 today too (Im considering today saturday and not sunday) im jealous. I only got to shoot some glocks.. no rifles.. rowr. And because too many people read this im not exactly going to give a name but when someone cuts themself and not meaning to cut it that deep but it ends up so deep that the person needs to get stitches and not talking to anyone about it when theres 1 person VERY close to him. Thats just... theres no word for it. Self cutting is very STUPID, he angered me today. Forgetting my cell phone angered me today.. Dad leaving in 3 hours angers me even more..

This isnt a good day....... Shit

Not much today

Was early release so i got home early yay~

I got kinda a lot of homework tonight and im gonna fail the test i have tomorrow for huck finn since ii havent been reading lol.

But owell~

Heres the new guitar i got during valentines weekend! The blue one

Its wednesday, a few days after the valentine weekend which was completely great!

Well first off with tuesday, nothing happened. Today... nothing happened besides my dad being an asshole as usual, i try to help him and i get yelled at.. glad to know my offer of helping was appreciated.

Okay on friday during school, everything was normal besides those walking around with flowers, stuffed animal or whichever but the highlight of them all was jenny during aguilar.. That was rather funny.



Well in the middle of class her ex (i think) came into the classroom out of nowhere and gave her those flowers, i never seen anyone turn so red before, she was pretty embarressed since everyone was like Awwww.

When i came home alley was there for me, theres nothing greater than seeing the person i love when coming back from school :) But we went to Flippers that day to just be with eachother and everyone... Alley played DDR!! HAR HAR HAR~ Soon she'll be saying Keke~, the azn is taking ovah.



Then the next day (Valentines Day!) in the morning i tried surprising her with the stuff i got her for valentines day but she woke up~ lol owell
But we went to sunset where... SHE PLAYED DDR!! HAR HAR HAR~



And fighting game... HAR HAR HAR



But we had a good time, there would be no other way i wouldve spent Valentines Day.. Was great. But uhhh there was A LOT of ghetto people at sunset that day, i dunno why or how but if i see another "gangsta" wearing all pink anytime soon, itll be too soon. Only place that was a refuge from the ghettoness was when me and alley ate at johnny rockets.



Was truly a great day :)

Sunday we were going to go to kris's but got grounded O_O Lol so we just didnt do anything really, later on we harrassed jake with our asses. Dont ask~ lol

Monday she had to go home, We had dinner at capri before we left to bring her home but it was a great weekend, i loved every second of it. We dont get to see eachother till March 4th which is the Linkin Park concert, it sucks waiting but its worth it.

1 of the guys for Tech Support was kicked out for slacking off i suppose so brandtly asked me if there was anyone i could recommend and i said jake so after interviewing jake i suppose, i wasnt in the room he was accepted and now hes with us~ Tomorrow alley is coming and i get to spend valentines with her!!! im so excited.

And the amazing news of the day. This girl i know monica.. Well her boyfriend got a FULL 275,000 scholarship to .... WEST POINT!! and she isnt letting him go even if he wanted to.. I dont know if he does or not but HOLY CRAP WEST POINT!! Theyve been together for 2 years and are getting "married".. All too familiar but anyways thats pretty uhm yeah.. If they love eachother i think she can wait a while since after he graduates and does his service for the military hes like... set for life but nope.. Jeeze id give up my balls for that

Today i brought the new camera to school to test its performance, overall its a basic camera for the average user.. It didnt serve my needs, the file sizes are about double than what they should be, action photos dont work so well.. Okay camera, my beat up camera is actually working better although this one has a lot better battery life and other things.

Nothing else today

Nothing much today

It was FCAT so i was in brandts office reading rolling stones for about 4 hours... Today my dad bought a digi cam and laptop for his trip to korea and i ordered my guitar. Other than that.. Nothing, talking to alley on the phone right now and going to sleep soon.

This is wonderful, im sick again lol

I left school around 11 because i couldnt stay any longer, i tried but i just felt too crappy. I couldnt even do any work or pay the slightest attention to anything since 99% of the time i was either A: Coughing or B: blowing my nose

my mom got me a milkshake when she went out somewhere and came back with the emos and im drinking that now but i cant taste anything lol, ill just pretend it tastes good

Its funny how i was beginning to become sorry for what i said.

Anyways i came back from naples today =( Weekend with Alley was great, had its moment or 2 but those didnt matter. Dylan couldnt make it to bowling so it was just me dean and alley, Dean won.. He said he sucks, he doesnt like me and alley do. We went to the mall afterwards, dean and alley bought thongs and were wearing them outside their pants, was pretty stupid but alley took it off and dean followed up with that. But all in all the weekend was great, im happy i got to see her this weekend and will see her the next!! Only problem is theres a dance at alleys school she wants to go to on friday and the only day i know sofar she can get here is friday. She said she'll drop it to come here but i know she really wants to go to be with her friends. Well have to see what we can figure out. I love her a lot




When i came home jason was still at his house so me and jake went to his house for a few minutes before he left.

back to school tomorrow.. Owell~ Josh out

Im at naples now with alley. My dad drove me all the way, me and alley saw the perfect score in the smallest movie auditorium room ive ever encountered. She was going to have jorge and brett to see the movie with us but the movie sold out since there was only 50 or so seats, if that in there.. The movie was cool due to the stoner asian dude~ Ive found my new role model. We stayed at the hotel after the movie and my dad went back home to work today and is going to pick me up tomorrow around 4. Later today were going bowling with dean, dylan, alley and I.

Out

Maybe i was harsh to summer but shes done things such as these far too often, im not just speaking from myself im speaking from others aswell. She always has shit to say about someone when she shouldnt be the one bitching.

At 12:45 im leaving school early because im tired, i hardly slept last night and i dont really know why. After school my dad is taking me to naples to see alley for the weekend :)

My dad is also leaving for Korea the 21st, i suppose this is his way of making up for the time hes going to be gone which is 8 months. Ill miss him, weve been fighting lately because lately (with the the exception of alley) ive been having a bad time with everything.

If i said i was kidding about what i said that wouldnt fix it because the truth is spilled even if your trying to kid. The fact that whatevers been said even if it is offensive isnt what is the problem, the fact of the opinion and thoughts directed to the individuals is.

Thats it, i thought i would be HALF nice to summer because im not a complete bitch that she is but once she gives shit to alley that pushes it even more. Hmm just because "she has a sense of humor she isnt a bitch", yeah uh huh... Well summer is a bitch, she always has been a bitch, . But summer is ms perfect therefore not a bitch. HA, nobody likes you summer and nobody ever will, everyone is stuck with you, theyre stuck with you in class, theyre stuck with you at lunch. Your a fucking bitch that nobody likes, oh wait you dont care because you have your "baby". Your so pathetic you fucking moron, i laugh the day you 2 break up.. Damnit.. thats right your getting married.. HOLY SHIT THATS SAD, you fucking 14, grow the fuck up you pathetic whore. Your a colossal bitch that nobody likes, everyone would rather live without you and your the most pathetic individual ive ever known. Your truly a sad person.. so very sad.. Whats even more sad is alley has more friends here than you do, now thats SAD.. She doesnt even live here and shes never even stepped foot in the school. And no summer, nobody knows you and nobody fucking cares.

So summer. Fuck you

Today was suckage sort of, besides the entire summer pissing me and alley off the day still sucked. I was so tired the entire day but the most unlikely thing happened in chemistry tho!!



Thats the highest grade ive gotten in that class *sniffle* hey thats like an A+ to me

Well today sucks because HOLY CRAP THERES A LOT OF HOMEWORK.. ok thats it

And heres another cool thing



Its a little brown bag that says little brown bag on it!!! all the guys were like "whao!" and all the girls looked at us weird and saying things like
"Wtf youve never been to bloomingdales?"

Re edited rant: Mad @ Summer

Normal day of school.. Nothing exciting, nothing special.. Just a day of school.



Cari, Amy, Becca and Tiffany are in my lunch on 2 4 6 days so yey~

And i still got raped btw too~



Theres jake when he met will farrel awhile ago

Josh out

When i was walking from the bus stop and about to walk to my door i see



So i had the "oh god not again" thing because my mom always does that like im 8 years old again with the stuff inside and as soon as i open the door my mom and dad had those things where u pull the strings and it makes the popping noise and stuff flies out.. Well they had those and surprised me.. As well i guess embarresing as it is even tho it isnt really but anyways... It brought a smile to my face. Then i noticed



We went to best buy because they wanted to buy me something but there wasnt anything i wanted so ijust got the Distillers cds and thats it. We went to samurai afterwards and now im home



Today wasnt as bad as i thought it would be, me usually being depressed on birthdays, everyones been really cool to me today. Beginning with the first second at school seeing andrea there before i was which is a HUGE surprise lol, even though it wasnt due to me the point is that was cool/funny.. shes usually at school a minute before the bell. I got a lot of happy birthdays from people i dont even remember telling them when my birthday was. Nobody said any crap about me and alley and instead everyone just asked about the weekend.. So whoever is reading this... Thanks. I still would rather be 16 but ya know what, because of you guys you already made 17 a good year, Thank you all so very much for being great friends, you have no idea how much it means to me

Yvette had a special way of saying happy birthday to me tho



Josh the birthday boy... out

Well brandtly is in the hospital now so im in the newspaper room with kris helping valancy.. I came back from first lunch with Andrea and Micheal.. I think we freaked him him out a little bit because we were mentioning "vibrating instruments" and if i cleaned the article of clothing i wore before.. So he was a lil weirded out lol. And yep all day peoples been pointing at my neck because of my ... gift from alley which would be the hickey i mean paintball shot. But it doesnt matter because she got embarresed since her friend bapo saw it and screamed outloud at the table so har har~ :) hehe i love her. Today is my birthday... yep.. and i dont care, i wish i was 16 or even 15 still. Micheal is 15 and he looks way older than I do. Owell i think me and my parents are eating out when i get home.










Josh out.

UPDATE: I went to 2nd lunch for a few min to say hi. And supposedly i was walking on US1 and i got kidnapped by a van and was raped anal style and i ended up in the hospital because my ass was bleading

Alley was able to come friday for the weekend :) Im so happy I got to spend the weekend with her when i needed someone. Im still alittle sick, just a stuffy/runny nose and clogged throat as usual. We didnt go out anywhere or anything just spent time with eachother which is all i really want to do with Alley. Mike came with us on the way to halfway naples point. I didnt go to school Friday tho because i was really dizzy and drowsy in the morning, we picked up my dad from the airport and ate at the something squadren restruant then picked up alley later. Karen brought Alley halfway where my dad picked Alley up and it was raining, i really do have to thank Karen somehow.

Tomorrow is my birthday.. Do i care? NOPE~ I would rather stay 16 and now me being 17 my life is getting to the point where I didnt want it to be, but i guess i cant stay a little boy forever and now this means people are going to want to talk about crap with me and alley. It hasnt happened in a very long time but still, it seriously pisses me off. Anyone whos going to talk crap is longer a friend of mine, it that means no one then let it be. And with the jokes aimed towards me, some of you know who im talking about will get their ass kicked, i no longer will take anymore of it. I hate birthdays, i hate mine, id be satisfied staying 16 but i guess not.

Im usually depressed on my birthdays but i have something to not make me depressed even if that thing did go back home today. I miss Alley so much already and i have to wait till Valentines weekend to see her again, well atleast itll be worth it since itll be me and alleys Anniversary and Valentines in one weekend. Im looking forward to that.



Josh out~

I cant wait for tomorrow... *sigh...*

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