Another tiring morning, the AC is still not working but supposedly the poeple are coming to the house to fix it. Its really hot at night, like a friggin oven and im hardly able to sleep much. I think I got 3 hours the past few days per night.

Tuesday (March 29) School was just that... school, mainly because I dont remember much of the day except the end...

After school I stayed after school because Nickel was going to pick up Mel, Krystle, Eric n I for the SAY ANYTHING SHOW :)



1 thing bad going bad with girls to a show... They take forever to get ready *sigh*. We headed to Nickels house first for whatever reason and then Mels/Krystles place for them to get dressed n such. They did this for absolutely no reason but owell, they took over 30 min.

But eventually they got ready and we headed out. The car ride there was quite uncomfortable in physical ways and others as well heh. Mel was having a mood probly because of the whole Nickel/Krystle thing but she was between Eric n I in the back. After time we did end up at the Factory and they were an hour late opening the doors so we were in the back of the place chillin. I saw a guy sitting down in a corner on the phone and I kept staring at him and I was like to Eric "I think thats the singer for say anything" but i wasnt completely sure and I didnt wanna seem like an idiot plus it would of been rude to just interrupt him like that.

The doors finally opened but by this time it was 7:30 and we had to leave at 9PM because of Nickels curfew so Nickel, Krystle decided not to go in so it was just Mel, Eric n I. The first band or person so to say was... who cares he sucked balls

In due time Say Anything did come on... Oh man... That was awesome






and then the only picture of any of us during the show... Which would be Mel since I was floating around everywhere n Eric was honorary camera man.



They played for a lil over 30 min but man that was one of the best 30 min ive ever had. I used every bit of energy I had, I crowd surfed 3 or 4 times and stage dived a couple of time lol =) When i was on stage and running to the other part of stage i patted all the band members except the drummer. The pits were straight too and everyone was so nice. When I fell on my head from surfin everyone picked me back up and threw me back up, SWEET!

I was really happy too, Mel was there and Say Anything is like one of our favorite bands, if not THE fav. at the moment. Were totally crazy about them and when they started playing Mel and I had the biggest smiles on our faces. Was cool.

After Say Anything we had to leave because of Nickel, so we got out... Got an autograph but couldnt find Max (lead singer). Mel and I were going stalker when we looked for him. I asked all the band members if they knew where he was and he said he was coming out so we waited a min but he didnt come out and we had to go. We got slurpees at 7-11 tho!

While we were waiting in the back for Max we heard Armor for Sleep playing, we like them a lot too and we wished we could see them but it was okay. We got to see Say Anything :) Eric got a shirt and Mel n I got matching ones.

We then proceeded home.





Got to Nickels, the momma came and picked us up... Krystle, Eric, The momma n Timmy were in the front while Mel n I were in the back of the truck. It was a chilly ride lol. We dropped off Eric first and then me after.

Awesome awesome AWESOME day.

Wed (March 30)

1st Period - Boring
3rd Period - Was in precal- Kurt got me out to help with Techie stuff
5th Period - Exciting day of Economics, oh man oh man lemme tell you

Day was pretty sucky but not if it makes sense heh

After school I came home, ate, then took a nap. After I woke up awhile later Jason n Jake came over and we played our thingies that make noises. Jake left at about 10:30 then jason stayed a couple of hours more then I got ready to sleep cept I couldnt SINCE ITS A FRIGGIN OVEN

Today is Papa Roach and Trust Company tho lol... Pwn~

Josh out

Well spring break is over and today was the first day of school again and its almost midnight now.. By the time im done with this it'll probly be like 2 AM =p

Frankly... I dont think i can remember everything lol

BUT!

Saturday (March 19) Car drive to Orlando... The drive there was nice, my dad told me stories while he was in the airforce and stationed in Alaska. Got there, checked in at the Marriott, it was the biggest Marriott resort in the world.. Dats koo and it had a starbucks... more kooness. When we went in the room, a few minutes later a guy came in with free coke and cookies cuz my dad was an elite member. PWN~!



My dad and I killed time by going to downtown disney and watched Robots. Movie was ... eh so so. WEnt back to the hotel room and just did whatever. I walked around outside and night talking to Mel. She said something to me that I wanted to say a long time but couldnt.

Sunday (March 20) Car drive to Jacksonville, I slept on this one. Got there, spent time with Grandparents. Went to the mall there with my Gma and went shopping around and saw the Ring 2... Another so so movie, I expected more. Went back, ate some chilli dogs, talked to Michelle on the phone and slept.

Monday (March 21) Woke up at 5 AM to head to Biloxi... Ugh~ It was too early but didnt matter to me, I slept the entire car drive. But yeah after 7 1/2 hours later we finally got there... Well to atleast the state



Checked in the hotel when we arrived at Biloxi. Then started the BOREDOM!!! Sorta... We ate at a restruant there and after that my dad n gpa gambled away while I was left to entertain myself. The arcade room there had DDR Extreme but im not into that anymore so I just played a few games and I was done. Then I got bored and started walking outside and decided to head to the beach where I took a couple of purdy pics.. If you think differently then... SUCK IT





It was really nice and the weather was breezy and chill. I wish someone was with me that would appreciate it but that didnt happen.

Came back... Did something, ate something... Dont remember blah blah. Slept

Tuesday (March 22) NEW ORLEANS!! WEEE!!! BOOBIES AT BOURBON STREET!!! Not really but thats where we went.



It was really cool, bars everywhere, sex joints, voodoo shops, poeple playing music... Wish I was 21, I couldnt do or go anywhere and im 18... WTF Mate? But hey heres a gold statue dude, I didnt give him any money, I shouldve hehe



Got some drinks at Pat o Briens, Watched a couple of black guys doing a performance by being funny and doing flips n sutff.. That was cool, I enjoyed my time seeing the place. But yeah we left and went to some casino that my gpa wanted to show my dad... That meant... JOSH ADVENTURING TIME!! WOOOO!!! But there was nowhere to adventure so I just sat in the arcade room and spoke with Mel on the phone.

After that went back to the hotel blah blah eat blah blah entertain myself while they gamble blah blah sleep.

Wed (March 23) Went back to Jacksonville, I read the entire car ride. We got there about 8:30 so there wasnt much to do, I talked to Michelle on the phone.

Thur (March 24th) Headed back to Orlando, Read my book the car ride and finished it. Kite Runner ... I hate reading but I read that with enjoyment, thats gotta tell ya something. Got to orlando, checked in at the swan resort and went to Old Town for a lil then after that City Walk and Universal. Got a bite to eat at the ORlando version of Pat o Briens then walked around n headed back to the hotel. Played some UT2004, watched fireworks, Talked to Mel, got room service and slept.

Friday (March 25th) Did some random stuff, Watched Guess Who at downtown disney, another cute lil date movie. Went to virgin, killed some time for my show. I went to see Fat Boy Slim and Crystal Method and the House of Blues. I didnt know what to expect because I never been to a show like that. It was totally cool tho. The DJ's were doing their thing and everyone on the floor was dancing, people break dancing, raving.. Everything. I was like one of the VERY few people below the age of 21 there, everyone had their 21 and over drinking bracelets on except me and like... 4 others or something lol. But yeah hawt stuff, good looking 21 n over girls would come dance with you and well that was fun =) It lasted a LONG TIME, the show started at 9 and by 1AM it was still going on. Fatboy slim played about 30 minutes then I left because it was getting too late and I was SOOOO tired. I liked it tho.

Went to the hotel, got more room service and slept.

Saturday (March 26th) Ride back home. Went to Mel's house to pick her up around 3 PM when we got back home. I walked in and there was like a buncha people there... Few rednecks, Nickel, eric, 2 other ppl and the obvious mel and krystle. But yeah got Mel and we headed to my house. I chilled with Mel in my room till about 6:30-7 PM when her mom came and got her. I wanted her to stay longer but she couldnt... I called jake over when she left and we practiced for the language festival.



APRIL 4TH LANG. FEST AT SOUTH DADE!!! WATCH US PLZ!!! Were doing an instrumental of santanas Oye Como Va. Im doing guitar, Jake is doing Bass and Jason is doing congas so WATCH US!

Later on in the night my dad couldnt find his keys because he wanted to go out and get some food but we looked everywhere and couldnt find the keys. My dad was blaming me because i had them last. But instead we ordered Pizza hut and Jake and I played Halo 2 till almost 4 AM.

Sunday (March 27th) Slept in, Dalia n Gus came over. Jake came then later Jason arrived. We started practicing. Eric and Jesse came by for aminute. Rest of the night was chill. Had fun playing with JAke and Jason, gotta do that more. Gus's sister came over for a lil bit too. Dalia painted my toe nails and Lorena gave me a zombie lookin make over- sheckzay

and for today... Brandt and a bunch of the techies are going to ORlando for 4 days... A - HOLES! And so it christine, I was gonna go with her and she'd be my sitting (and sleeping *cough*) partner but I coudlnt go to the trip.. Bleh

1st period, went in Mels class for like the last hour of class. Chilled with her, andrea and eric n such. And a close up of Melly!



After was homeroom, went to where Katie n such are and Michelle came walking from afar... With a skirt on, she looked so cute!!! AWwwww~

3rd period we got a bunch of comps so I helped out instead of going to Pre-Cal. Got excused outa class. Mel helped us too but I decided to get Jake and Eric. Got them and kris helped as well. We emptied the boxes and put the moniters and desktops into the storage room then we started to hit eachother with the styrophome. Much fun lol.
Went to 2nd lunch with Mel, Eric n Jake joined us. We sat with Joey n Nat.

5th period went to Shipps, another EXCITING CLASS OF ECONOMICS!!!

Went home on the bus. and when I got home i suddenly realized why i was feeling so hot the night before when I thought i was getting a fever or something... THE AC BROKE!!! WOOO!!! So i was like okay w/e, thats what a fan is for... So I started to eat and wanted to watch tv to find that... DIRECT TV ISNT WORKING!!! WOOO!!!! So I got frustrated... Went on computer... DSL KEEPS GOING ON AND OFF!!! MORE WOOO!!! UGH

Took a nice, hot, sweaty nap. Woke up... Went to Samurai to eat after Jesse n Eric gave me a visit, went to mikes old hosue and fixed the brohters computer... Got paid 30$ in total and now im back home.

Tomorrow is hopefully Armor for Sleep, Recover and the SAY ANYTHING SHOW!!! If Nickel will take us heh...

Josh out

Hmm

"Things get worse before they get better" thanks alley... that actually made me look at things differently...

Thursday (march 17th) Early dismissal day. I came to school. I started the morning rather down. The bell rang for 2nd period. I went to PC support, did a job or two then went to Mrs Adams to get pass to get Mel out of class. I really needed to speak with her. As I was walking to Mel's class here she is walking out of her class with a pass... Quite the coincidence... We went in the library and talked to eachother, Krystal and JR joined us for a little bit. After that it was homeroom and Mel n I were in the library still. 4th period, no point in going so I hung out in the office and talked to eric. I needed to do that too. Went to 1st lunch. Hung out with Mel, Eric, Jake n Oscar in the middle of the area in the grass~ Pwn ~

2nd Lunch... Spoke with Michelle, she kept trying to run away from me... PFFT! I THINK NOT! After 2nd lunch it was 6th period, no point in going to that either so I hung out in the office. We all were in the library chillin out (Eric, Victor, Mel, Micheal)



Things are good again...

After school I walked with Eric n Mel to the front of the school and hung there for alittle till they started walking to Mel's house. I saw Michelle and Katie going into the school and Michelles moms car so I said hi to Michelles mom and she drove to the parking lot and I hid in the car and when Michelle n Katie walked back and opened the door michelle was like "OH JESUS!" and she jumped.. Haha it was funny. They gave me a ride to the park.

When I got to the park Danny, Nat n Savannah were there so I chilled out with them until the others arrived to play football. Chris J,Edwin, Micheal, Jake, Kevin, Jacob, David and some others showed up, we played with 8 other kids there. It was SOOOOO fun :) I had a great time, I was so tired after awhile... I needa start running... But it was a blast.

After that Jake, Edwin, Micheal, Kevin and I went to Edwin/Micheals place. We ate some cup of noodles and played Poker.. I PWNED everyone until the end where Edwin took all my money... ASS!




Went home, relaxed and tried to go over Lee's for OC night but couldnt make it so I slept in early that night. Good and fun day.

as for today. Had breakfast with dad and went home, was home for a few hours and was BORED OUT OF MY MIND so my dad dropped me off at Mel's. Yay! When I got there Eric was there but he had like no idea what was going on and was falling asleep so his mom picked him up soon after. About an hour or so later Jake, Kris, John n James showed up. They left about an hour after and it was just Mel, the momma and I. I left around 9PM. I enjoyed my time.

My dad and I went to Ruby Tuesdays, I saw this guy from princeton there named Joey. I remembered him... I didnt like him... but it was his birthday lol.

Well now im home and tomorrow im going to be traveling with my dad so farewell to all of you Joshie shall be back next week. I'll hopefully be able to update while im going, if not... Ill try to remember much as I can :) Bye bye

but before I go... Girl with thong popping out while shes laying in the middle of the park! O ya



Josh out

I give up, with everything. Nothing works out, individuals talking shit behind my back... Whatever - im out

On another note.. DSL isnt working like it should... another disappointment

The morning started as any horrible day would. 1st period did a few things for PC Support then AJ n Joe showed up. I left school and we went to Dennys for breakfast



Came back to school during homeroom and went to 3rd period.

Did some classwork and went to lunch... Sat with Meghan, AJ and Kori but I didnt say anything.

Went back and did some more work then put my head down like these two




Went to shipps class.. Saw christine on the way and said hi for a second. Class was boring and long. Bell rang and went to the front. Hung out for a little bit with Michelle then went to the NVP meeting.



1 more quarter till I get to leave all you backstabbers. The only time I was even "up" today was for a split second in the morning and at the end of school before I went to the NVP meeting.

I hate school now, I hate everything about it. I was thinking maybe it would kinda be like a movie, graduate happy with all your friends and just have an awesome time senior year. Jeeze was I wrong.

Im miserable



Josh out

I dont really feel like updating but i suppose its my job *sigh* =p

Thursday (March 10th) I dont remember much at all.. I probly could if I thought REALLY REALLY hard. But uhm for homeroom Mel and I were in the library working on vocab for our different classes... It was special. sigh.




Dont remember the rest of the day...

Friday (March 11th) More shit with Mel... Why does all of this have to be so complicated? IT KILLS ME. And im so insecure about eric, I dont know... Waiting here with arms wide open and just being left here to ponder makes me do and think things I normally dont and it screws things up even more.

4th - Park - M

After school I just slept... I slept till 7 and thats when my grandparents came. That was cool I missed them... Barney came over later in the night and stayed till about 1 AM... We talked about stuff and played guitar.

Saturday (March 12th) MY DADS BIRTHDAY! HAPPY BDAY :)

The day started with breakfast and sang happy bday to my dad. I was still thinking about the thing with Mel but i just put it off my mind. Thinking of Michelle gave me a different mind set, she really cares for me and is always there... I like that.

Since my stereo broke, my mom and Gma went to Brandsmart to return my stereo...



My gma went to marshalls while my mom and I were in the store. She got me a new stereo.. Its kinda uhm... OVERKILL but hey im not complainin




500 Watts, 4 speakers surround sound... Pwn~

After that, we got a hot dog.. Had the guy squeeze the huge box for the stereo in the trunk with it hanging out and it being held on by rope and uhm.. Headed home... got home, hooked up the stereo, went whao~ then we all headed out.

We went to Longhorn for dinner. Was yummy, they sang happy bday to my dad adnt hey gave him a cup of vanilla ice cream with real fudge, he didnt want it so i ate it.. Yum~

After that we went to the Miccosuki (sp?) casino.. It sucked.. I forgot my ID so i couldnt gamble but they said the machines sucked anyways so owell. wE were there about 2 hours or so

Got home then I headed out with Joey n Barney to shivers party. We had to pay entry fee since we dont have boobs. There was an entry fee and less crunk than the last party... Does this make sense? NO! The party BLEW MY BALLS. Andrea, Cari n Becca were there which was kinda interesting. Becca and Cari were with eachother as usual *hmm* and Andrea was eager to I guess be social or get drunk. But there wasnt anything to get drunk on soooo *shrug*. We decided to leave around 11:30... I got home and called Mel, she said she'd call me back but didnt call back till like 1:30. I stayed up all night waiting for it and when she did call she just called to keep her word. Eh... yeah

Sunday (March 13th) Woke up and was bored for hours.. I didnt want to get out of bed, I had a lot on my mind then Eric n Jesse came to save me. That cheered me up a lot. We went to Sunset and saw Be Cool. The movie was ok. Before the movie we walked around, walked to publix and blah blah. I had fun.

Monday (March 14th) During 1st period AJ, Joe and I went out of school with our new "special passes" and we went to publix to get some cookies then mcdonalds n headed back to school. I dunno, that was interesting lol.



3rd period was a test, was hard. Lunch was lonely, i kept hoping to see Mel come. I was sitting by myself studying and Natalie n Christina came to talk to me.

5th period was a quiz... Didnt know jack. I dont understand Eco at all, im so lost.. Im lost on a lot things heh.

Bell rang and Mel was outside, she made some excuse for waiting outside.. dont know what that meant. I stayed after school with Jesse



Awhile later we were on the wooden fence waiting for Eric to come pick us up then Michelle's mom came to pick her up in the circle so jesse n I walked infront of the car and talked to them for a little. Think the mom embarrased Michelle, she was really cute trying to hide haha.

After that, stopped at Jesses for a minute then went to Chinese buffet!




We were there for almost 2 hours and I STUFFED myself.. Omg too much food. We opened our furtune cookies and Jesses was stupid but mine was "Have trust in your collective"... I thought that was interesting and I started thinking about my "collective" lol. But erics... OMG! LOL!!! "Prejudice is the child of ignorance"
THATS HILARIOUS ! well because of eric getting it haha. *Driving along* Fucking ______ <--- Insert Racial Slur Here *keeps driving*

We left the buffet then went to ERics house for a little. Got my video camera, game and borrowed a DVD from eric. We dropped off Jesse and picked up Allie and Meghan. After we got them we headed to musicians discount center. I got me a few pics and wanted to know if they had the C-1 Classic but nobody does.. GRRR! Owell.

Went to sunset afterwards to see Hitch.



I actually liked the movie, i thought it would of been a good lil date movie. Eric, during the movie removed the cup holder on the seat next to me... Crazy mofo lol. Allie kept making comments during the movies, I hate that kinda thing.. It annoys me.

When the movie ended, Allie n meghan went to the bathroom and waited for us outside of the theatre. So what did we do instead of go outside with them? we walked into the pacifier, turned on the lights and walked out.. Haha thats funny stuff.. We also turned on the light for constatine. Lololol too funny.

After we left the theatre, we went to LA. Fitness and got a tour of the place. Its actually really nice and is a lot bigger than we thought. We all liked it there.

We headed home aftwards. Had a fun night.

Today... woke up to Meghans and gus's phone call. Got to school at about 6AM (TOO EARLY!) for the stupid senior grad night and getting the bus's we wanted. Ill be sitting on the same bus with cody, nat, savannah, aj, meghan and others... PWN!

Sat with meghan in the morning till people started to come. I talked to her about stuff, made me think a bit.

2nd period bunch of nothing. Waited for mel when the bel rang.. We didnt say much to eachother, same for after homeroom. sigh.

4th period was a movie so i got out and went to 1st lunch. I wanted to talk to mel and make it seem like the BS never happened so we could be back to what we were, even if it wasnt "together". But she was busy studying and eric was there. Im so insecure but i figure I have a reason to be. I just said hi to a different people and dunno.. I didnt feel like I had a place of belonging.

Went to 2nd lunch. Met with Michelle as soon as she got out of her door so I could talk to her, She would put that smile on my face that but ive been longing for all day BUT she kinda was avoiding me. We were sitting next to the ice cream machine and she put her head on my shoulder but wouldnt look at me or speak to me. We walked to the pavilion and met up with jake, they talked to eachother. I decided to give her the space she wanted I suppose so I talked to Christine. Found out some interesting connections with her, Its a bigger surprise that I didnt know her last year. At one point I just looked at her hair cuz her highlights are kewl. At the end of lunch I walked christine back to class and went in for a moment then left.

Walked to Mr. Leons class (which is also Michelles) and went in for a little. I made an excuse of me being concerned with my grade (which I am!!!! sort of...) to speak to michelle but she wouldnt say anything. Her friend ashley was like "OMG just tell him, its over something stupid" but she wouldnt. I left after trying for a few minutes to get it outa her but didnt work lol.

During the time of 3rd lunch I talked to people in the office. Before the bell rang i walked towards Mel's class. She walked me to mine and we didnt say much to eachother. We watched Othello during class...

The bell rang and I was hoping so much to see Mel waiting for me outside my door but she wasnt there, instead I saw her walking with eric in the distance.

Was infront of the school, talking to people and Mel was just a few feet from me and shes like "Josh, I didnt notice you were there"... Guess she doesnt notice me anymore... Michelle had her hoodie off, she looks really cute and is so cheerful. She took Josh Eaton home. Before Jake and I left with Kevin she gave me a big hug and a kiss on the cheek. Then proceeded home with Kevin.

I got home, ate and slept. Before I fell asleep I hoped so much that Mel would just call me. I had a dream that she called me and I spoke with her and everything went back to normal and the phone rang... It was Mel, I was happy. We didnt say much to eachother for awhile, lots of silence... We started to talk. I feel like an idiot. If only I didnt do those things. My foolish ways...

I want to be with her so much, but she thinks shes not good enough and I guess I gave her that message somehow. I dont know. This is all so complicated and im so lost. What am I doing? I wish there was an answer. And at the same time theres Michelle. She gives me the only happiness I have, its hard to have a frown with her.

After the phone call with Mel... I sat there on my bed thinking. I felt as if my body was sinking into my bed and like a soul leaving the body. I spoke with Michelle, I felt normal again.

Played some guitar, Spoke with Christine online and I was making a LJ account so I could comment on hers since she pretty much FORCED IT ON ME! (not really~) but yeah it seems that I had an account for over a year. Whao dont remember that heh.

And because I can... I bring you a very seductive and sexy picture of lee.



Ive grown tired of waiting in a lost and confused state.

Josh out

...

Screw it
Tuesday (March 8th) I didnt go to school due to the FCAT, people woke me up in the morning and pissed me off. I went off mainly on Alley... Oops sorry. Later on, at about 12PM I went with Oscar to Sams where we played Halo 2 on Xbox live till like 4PM... Ugh too much halo, i can only take so much.

After that I came home and took a nap and when I woke up I went out with my mom N mike. We first stopped at Old Navy cuz I wanted my black button shirt that ive lost 4 TIMES already and I got another one... Wewt! Happy! After that we went to eat at Hooters... heh wewt~ Then AFTER that went to Barnes n Nobles where I bought a book and a magazine. Dropped Mike home and my mom and I headed back home.

While we were driving, Mike pointed something out


Wewt my moms car is EVIL~ If I was lucky it wouldve driven us to hell so I can kick Hitler in the nuts.

I was up ALL night, till about 3-4 AM. Couldnt sleep...

As for today heh... Everyone knows so theres no point in keeping it hidden so whatever... Well this morning started the best possible way I could ask which would be Mel giving me a good morning call since she didnt get to say goodnight the night before. That made me happy and when I got to school there she was and we just sat there in the morning together and me being happy as could be.

2nd period was normal, I did stuff I think. After 2nd period waited for Mel outside her class but I was standing at a different spot than I normally did and when Mel walked out she looked for me, was funny. Walked her to homeroom, said Hi to Michelle, Katie, Jess then walked Mel back to her homeroom. I did whatever for my homeroom. Waited for Mel outside of her homeroom and walked her to class then I wen tin brandts to do make up work for spanish. I went to first lunch and sat with Mel, it was great. Jesse was ALL the way on the opposite end and he called me saying " I can see you" the Lisa called too heh.

After first lunch I went to 2nd lunch and sat with Michelle, Jake and Christine






Was cool, josh was happy AS COULD BE even more.

During the time of 3rd lunch I just stayed in the office.

For 6th period I went to English, I was standing outside of the class and Mel came to say hi. Went in... Did my work. As I was working and listening to my headphones, me being in the "school-work zone" Mel scared the shit out of me by coming in the class to say hi and tell me she could make it to the NVP meeting. I was happy. I finished my work quickly and got out of class to find her. She was nowhere to be found so I talked to the treasurer to get my charges cleared. Mel came back to the office a few minutes before the bell, She was in Mr. Allens class. We walked to my class so I could get my stuff. The bell rang and Mel was standing outside of the door looking at me and the door closed so I went out the other door and popped up beside her and scared her. Walked to the front then found out Krystle missed the bus to timmy had to pick them both up. Only reason I was gonna go to the NVP meeting today was to spend some time with Mel but since that didnt work out I just caught the bus.

Came home happy (heh), got a bite to eat, spoke with Michelle then took a nap. When I woke up I spoke with Mel. And since everyone knows and well... W/e i dont care. ITs obvious I have a thing for Mel, a big thing actually. I had for quite a while now and theres been so much bullshit between us. At one point its me not wanting a relationshit then that changing, then her not wanting one, then both of us MAYBE wanting one but her not wanting to get hurt, the thing with Jesse and Eric W. with "Rar Mel Rant Rar", the whole love triangle with Eric S. and now the mom not wanting us to go out because I MADE her cry.

Ok, In her words everyone comes 2nd to me but yet since the Mom doesnt want us going out theres absolutely "no chance" and she goes for the 2nd option... Uhm and wtf is that? Im getting fed up with all of this, if its not one thing its another. Im cursed thats what it is. I said when Alley and I broke up that Id end up lonely and stay lonely, I jynxed and cursed myself. Eric S. wins and doesnt even need to try heh, I lose... W/e, just BS you all dont need to know but yet I just typed all of this so everyone can spread rumors but like I said ... whatever...

I took a long nap today, im going to be up all night long... theres nobody to speak to, no nothing. I played guitar all night in the dark until my dad came home. Here I was complaining I was alone in the house, in the dark but yet when my dad came home I wish he didnt so i could stay in the dark and play by myself.

I spoke with Michelle to brighten me up but I dont know, I just was too... eh... and no words even came out of my mouth. Michelle is an amazing person and always brings a smile to me but today after my nap on the phone... dunno

Oddly enough in a not so odd way Christine cheered me up. Shes really cool and she sent me an ultra, ULTRA cute picture of her... SHES SO PURDY!



Josh out

Tomorrow is FCAT for Juniors Woo!! What does that mean? While people like Eric, Jake, Mel n Andrea are at school taking a test JOSH WILL BE HOME SLEEPING! BOOYA~

Sunday (March 6) Was me doing my paper for Martin all day but I was very SLOW about it. I did like little by little. Later on in the night ERic n Nickel gave me a lil visit, that was koo. But yeah went to sleep at like 2AM

Today I went to school but I woke up a lil earlier than usual and I had nothing to do and couldnt go back to sleep so I was like eh... *looks at hair gel* I put hair gel in my hair today. I havent done that in awhile and when I got to school everyones like "I like your hair!!" That was really cool. Its a lil funny that it was like that for a long time and its like they never seen my hair like that.

I waited for Mel for homeroom but she didnt come to school, later on I found out she was sick.

I went to 1st lunch where I sat with Lee n summer and summer did a survey i guess with me where I ate 2 starbursts but with my eyes closed. I got them right but she did it on someone else like that but with their nose closed and she got them both wrong. Mmmm I MUST TRY THIS AGAIN.

Went to 2nd lunch too!




And this girl that ended up on my phone somehow.. I DONT KNOW YOU!


Michelle had pigtails for her hair, she doesnt normally do that. Hey what a coincidence we both did something different with our hair today, It was really cute.

6th Period I turned in my paper I worked "oh so hard on" but I forgot to do an outline... Uhm... DAMNIT!!! Owell lol. We then watched the movie frankenstein based off the original novel, its interesting. I might NOT skip class to actually watch the rest of the movie Har har... Since like I usually dont go to a class if theyre watching a movie... Waste of time in my opinion

After school I took a nap and when I woke up My mom and I went out to eat at Capri. Before we got there I wanted to stop by Mels for a minute, I gave her a note and some cold medicine. The stuff I like OD'd on lol... Alka seltzer is good for you!

But yeah now im back home...

Ok welp

Josh out

JOSH IS SLEEPY!!

its 12:17AM Sunday morning... or night... SLEEPY but yeah i figured i might as well do a quickie.

Friday (March 4th) Normal sleepy morning... I was laying down like a bum at the wall infront of the school with my hat covering my head and someone kicks me... Its christine, I get up and hug her then go back to my sleeping spot... Minutes later I get another kick and its mel. She gave me a sticky bun from knawsberry lol :) She was gonna drop it off in the office with a note for me to be all stalkerish but she just wanted to give it to me. I walked with her n Eric to class to say Hi to everyone in there and Mr Allen since hes back. (yey!) 3rd period was w.e... We had a sub and we just did make up work. Went to 2nd lunch and I was walking to the wall that dalia usually sits but there was dalia instead there was Mel waiting. Shes an aid for a teacher but the teacher shes an aid for has 1st lunch so she asked if she could help out another teacher to go in 2nd lunch to spend it with me. =) That was cool.

After lunch did more make up work and... LEE SLEEPING!! (with joey n nat in the back)



After class headed to Shipps. ECONOMICS SUCKS!!! THE BIG ONE!!! Ugh I hate that class now kinda... kinda... My shipp rocks my socks but the subject just sucks. After class was over Mel was waiting outside of shipps class for me... We walked to the front of the school, said bye to people and I brought her home with me :) We got a ride home with KEvin, Lisa n Jesse. Spent the day with Mel until 9:30, I really really enjoyed my time. After my dad and I dropped her off I was gonna go to the woods and chill with everyone there but I was way too tired and just went to sleep. Mel called me at like 1:30AM looking for her sister and she felt bad but tis was okay, I care about krystle and If she was missing its a concern of mine aswell.

as for today... Woke up around 11AM... Went to Applebees with my dad for lunch and then after that went to Cutler Ridge mall for alittle because my dad wanted to get some books for him. After that we stopped at Best Buy where I bought the first UnderOATH cd and Mae CD. Went home afterwards and ATTEMPTED to take a nap but failed. Aroudn 5:30 I went to Lee's and 2 of her friends from west palm were there. I remembered one of them from Lee's party, Brenya I think is how you spell her name. But yeah I remember her, shes a cutie. Lol its interesting, Lee's friends from west palm kinda have a similiar personality from Lee's... Its so cool haha.

Anyways we went to Genesis's and Becky's Birthday party. Was a bore, and SOMEBODY was suppost to go there... Not to say any names *cough* MICHELLE *cough*... RAR! We were outside of beckys house in the back just doing w/e. There was no music or anything but hey owell. I mostly chilled with Lee and Christine while I was there. We had to leave early because of Lee's mom so I went home early. Spent the rest of the night doing whatever.

Tomorrow WAS the Otep show but I have martins paper to do and if I dont ill fail the class SOOOOOOO no Otep for josh =/

Josh out

Today !!! Its today!!! Todays almost over!! Ooo Nooo!!! I have no idea whats going on...

The morning started out with me going to school and getting pissed on the bus because Armor for Sleep wouldnt play again on my IPOD. Got to school, chilled there in the morning. Went to Brandts, Did english homework the entire time. After the bellrang I waited for Mel and walked her to homeroom after we gave Mr Allen a hello since hes back and well =) Thats good... Homeroom I uhm... dont remember.

Went to 4th period, got to talk to Krystle since I dont get the chance anymore... Shes always working or at nightschool... But then lunch yay! With Michelle, Jake and Christine! with an oh so pretty pic of her!




Then uhm lunch was over... Went back to class... We were watching the performances from last years festival and I was about to come on but then the bell rang and im like "yay you people dont get to see me today!". When I got out of class Mel came up to me and sang the words "I came out here to tell you that it rains in heaven all day long" which is kinda funny because I was listening to that song before I fell asleep the night before and it reminded me of her. But we went up to say hi to Mr Allen again and went back to class. I got excused for a few minutes so I walked around with her then headed back to class. Class was a bore. Bell rang... WEnt to front of school. MICHELLE STOLE MY HAT RAR!!! But I got it back... RAWR!!!

Went home with Kevin, Lisa, Jake n Jesse






Got home... Ate, Slept. Rest of the night was blah blah blah.

Ok thats all Wee

Josh out

I have a dad again... Ooo

Sunday (Feb 27) Day of nothing, I played guitar all day and Barney came over later and chilled for awhile.

Later in the night I found out Jake asked out Michelle. Im ok with it, theres obviously going to be some oddness to it but thats ok.

Monday (Feb 28th) Day of FCAT, Only reason I came to school was cause Shipp was having a class so I went. I came to school confused not sure where to go, I found victor and he knew where we were suppost to go to sign in so I followed him and we then went in the cafeteria to get an AP pass. The class was in the cafeteria.



The entire class was as brandon put it "A waste of life" lol. We just went over stuff we did the class before but that isnt really a bad thing because I AM BECOMING SO LOST IN THAT CLASS O_O... In class I jsut text msged a bunch of people and was on the lookout for Mel. Eric came into the cafeteria but Mel wasnt with him so i thought maybe she just didnt come. After class I went into the PC support room



I was in there with Micheal n Eric, we just kinda chilled out ... for hours and hours lol. We had to go to 4th period for a little so I headed to the 4th period class of the lovely Pre-Cal and as I was walking there I passed Mel and I was like Whao~. I got really happy and cheerful n bouncy. I was in Precal and first lunch started and I thought of any excuse to get out so what better than "Mr Leon imma fix your computer but i need to get a CD" so I got outa class and went to 1st lunch. Mel, Michelle, Jake n others were there. I was rully bouncy n happy. I couldnt stay the entire time so I went back n actually fixed the computer lol.

After class it was 5th period and nobody was in Shipps, everyone... kinda left... So I went into the Office to see Mel. Tis was cool. Went home.

I cant remember what I did after school. Probly nothing.
What did happen though is I called Mel later on ine night and out of nowhere her mom previously made a deal with her O_o. Were allowed to talk on the phone twice a day for 30 minutes each and I get her on friday lol. *shrug* but hey woot friday =) Im happy, I think her mom got fed up with us 2 talking so much and the phone dying all the time.

Late in the night my mom was really getting me angry bout asking me stupid things and it was just ticking me off... Ugh... Mikey came over at about 12AM and we went to Dennys n went back home.

Tuesday (March 1st)

New month! Oooo gay... Anyways I woke up in the morning sick... yeah sick.. WTF MATE!? I was suppost to hang out with Eric n Jake during school times but I couldnt get out of bed so I slept... A lot... Later on in the day, sometime after school Barney n Joey gave me a lil visit. They were riding their bikes around everywhere, I wish I had a bike so I could of joined them... If I wasnt sick that its. After that talked to a few people n slept more... Slept slept n slept. Talked to a few poeple the time I was awake, took nyquil and TRIED to sleep.

Sometime in the night I got a very encouraging call from Jesse... solves a lot of things I had in my head

Wed (March 2nd... today!)

I went to school late, I didnt sleep right last night and well Im sick... SO I went to school around 10AM. Got to school about 10:25, went to Brandts for a few minutes till the bell rang for 1st lunch. I went to the art area to find Mel but she wasnt there so I headed to lunch and when I walked to the usual "area" theyre in (even tho i dont normally have the lunch lol) I saw Edwin and his hair was cut!!! I completely forgot about it because Rudy told me about it before but yeah I forgot about it, it surprised me. As I was sitting Mel came and im like wewt!. She put her food down infront of me, walked away, said hi to ERic n Kurt then came back and sat with me... =) I wish I had lunch with her atleast one of the 2 days... ugh... but I was happy.. We sat there being us and me drinking my bottle of cold medicine ... mmmmm yummy...

After 1st lunch, I went and foudn Mr. Leon and told him I was late and 2nd lunch started. I sat with Megan and Kori and just talked. After that went back to Pre-cal.. They were doing things I didnt know so yeah I was confuzzled. Damn I need to catch up.. Stupid senioritis, heh ive always had it lol. But hey so does Lee!!!



When the bell rang, Joey was talking to Leon so I waited for her till I walked out. We walked out and I parted with her to find Mel. I walked to the office and looked for her but I didnt find her so I started walking to Shipps class and I came across Mel. She said something along the lines of "I looked in Shipps class but I didnt see you"... Thats special :) Shipps class was confusing... I REALLY NEED TO CATCH UP. *sigh*

The bell rang. Went to the front and Michelle gave me a get well note and juice!!! Hehe thats sweet *hug* Cept If I dont... Ill die



As I was leaving I came across Mel n Matt, Mel looked at my note from Michelle and told me "Dont die!" I talked to her for a lil then Kevin was about to leave and since Jake and I were getting a ride with him.. We had to go. Told her I had to go and she held on to my pinky and told me not to go. Keke~ =)

Got dropped off home and when I came home my dad was there. That was cool =) He brought me some stuff from South Africa like a hand painted ostrich egg! Ooo



I talked to Michelle for alittle bit then I slept for an hour or two. A few minutes after I woke up I spoke with Mel. After that I uhm... Did nothign really.

Tomorrow I was gonna hang out with Christine but thats not gonna work out, gonna do something with dad instead. Then friday is with Melly !! Saturday is undetermined and sunday is the Otep show. Since Greenday is a negative imma go see the angry lady scream.

Welp

I got my egg that Alley gave me for Xmas fixed and its glowing again!! YAY!



Josh out