JOSH SLEEPY!! JOSH NO SLEEP :(

July 30th (Saturday) Around a lil after 5 PM went to corries house for her b-day party. When we first got there, one of the first impressions jake and I got was... SAUSAGE FEST!! There was like 2 guys to 1 girls and were just like... ghey ... Corrie told me to bring a sum trunks to swim but i didnt feel like it so when i got there she forced me to change into some from her brothers... literally.. FORCED ME

So i was pushed in the pool for no reason and just going.. yep... why did i end up in here... yep... Sometime after I got out and changed into my regular clothes n Becca, Jake and I became outcasts and just stayed with eachother.. One of the cool dudes from the thing Andrew chilled with us too.

Later on we were in Corries room and I saw Risk so im like.. Jake were playing risk... so we started to play risk and as we were setting up Alyssa wanted to play so were like.. scraight~




Our game took like 3 hours so that killed a lot of time.. pwn.

Afterwards it was a lot of laying around.. Lot of guys left so that was cool. A lot of us ended up in Corries room and we were gonna sleep there but it was HOT as bolas so most of us moved to the living room to sleep on the comfy tile floor.. Oh yes.. Hardly anyone slept and if they did it was only for 2-3 hours... Corrie and I got like.. one -_- Zzzz

Woke up after my ... "sleep" today and did random things like... try to sleep some more!!! which didnt work out.. PLayed some UT on Corries comp wewt. Was forced to play a lame version of jenga.. TRUTH OR DARE JENGA!! But it was funny i had to switch shirts with andrew then corrie n natalie had to switch shirts and do other stupid stuff too.



Watched Tank Girl while we all slowly dozed away due to our lack of sleep and uhm.. Eventually left with Jake at around 4:30PM... But before we left Alyssa was doing 1337 trix w/ teh wooden spoon of Corrieh



And im sleepy now.. Very sleep.. Must stay awake..

During the party Jake and I had some similiar thoughts. When we first got there the entire "ghey sausage fest thing" then what was really weird was when Natalie first came. when I saw her im like wtf ive seen her somewhere... I know i know her somewhere but where.. UGHH!! I had in my mind for like 30 minutes then i said to jake that girl reminded me of someone and hes like OMG I WAS THINKING THAT and then I thought about it more and it reminded us of JADE!!! She looks like a younger version of Jade and its weird!!!

but anyways going on cruise tomorrow for 5 days.. Wish Michelle would be going with me heh... dream on josh.. I guess I can just hope for hawt chix0rs that i wont do anything about lol

Without wax,
Josh out

July 24th (Sunday) WEnt to kurts house!!! Joe stopped by when jake was still over to say whats up n stuff n we said we were going over to kurts to fix him comp and he wanted to come along too. So later on Joe came by and took jake and I to kurts!

Kurt build a new computer by buying ghetto ass parts and having ghey eric putting it together ( <3 u eric ) and we spent an hour or 2 trying to fix his comp and we brought that and kurt to my house and we tested out the ram and the ram was bad. They bought ghetto ram.. Joe took them back home at around 11.. Good stuff

July 25th (Monday) Day 2 joshie

July 26th (Tue) Went out with my mom.. Went to best buy.. Met up with mike and ate at bahama breeze then saw bewitched at the regal theatre next to it. Ehh it wasnt very funny but i guess itd be an okay date movie to get a few brownie points with your girlfriend.

July 27th (Wed) I got really bummed out when i woke up.. I was thinking about a certain someone and I was really tired.. I went online and Jake n summer wanted to hang out but I wanted to stay home so I went to my room and listened to some NIN n slept... Like as soon as I fell asleep jake was knocking on my window with a gun telling me that Lee is coming to get them to hang out.

So i was like LEE!!! Thought of lee just made me yay~ Cuz i havent seen Lee in a long time and cmon shes just so sexy so i tagged along. We went to the bowling alley!




When we first got in josh yelled me and I was like JOSH!!!! (no i wasnt talking to myself) and micheal was with him.. I havent seen micheal for a long time and it was good to see he was doing ok. We played a game of bowling and I totally SUCKED!! hahah i was horrible. Summer was right ahead of me tho =) Jake and Lee did okay... About the 2nd or 3rd to last round or w/e sabrina, eric, mike ect came in and I was liek HEY!!!! IT was good seeing them :)

We left and went to Cici's to eat after!! And we stayed there like 3 hours haha it was great. Cmon whats not great with lee





About the 2nd hour of us being there all the ppl at the bowling alley came to eat.. It was funny.. And heres Eric n sabrina!! They seemed to have weird rashe on their neck *cough*




Afterwards it was getting late and ppl were getting off work haha.. so we headed to Lees to watch Resevior dogs!



then lee dropped us home.. it was a fun day and im happy jake pulled a gun on me to go.

July 28th (Thursday) To put everything in short.. Gus, Dalia n Claudia came over.. Laid around... Jake n Summer came over... Chilled around... Dalia n Claudia went home... Watched Blow... Jake n summer went home.. Gus stayed.. and I PASSED OUT!! It was about 1 AM at this point

Today!! Woke up around 1.. Gus woke up a lil later.. i played some Navy Field.. Set up the new patio furniture cuz my mom is psycho and buys stuff that we already have.

Then went with my dad to drop off gus and we went to Bennigans to eat and headed to Beccas.. Jake went over around 2 PM and I go tthere aroudn 5PM. When i got there Becca, Corrie and Jake were.. playing I spy...

Corrie's cool, shes cute in that innocent goofy way lol. She read some of the same books I have and I dont read much ! I felt like a book nerd that had someone to talk to someone about a novel.. that was new and funny to me.

We just stayed in her room.. This girl maria came over soon and we all ended up laying on Beccas bed while they poked eachothers boobs and Jake and I were like.. "uhmm... were so missing out". Later Alyssa came, shes a real cutie.. Remember her from the party like2 years ago.. Another funny.. Had a lot of fun, going to corries birthday party tomorrow because her n maria are like.. forcing jake and I to go. I dont remember them from beccas party 2 years ago.. Then again I was with alley and they were like "you were that pimp who was making out on beccas bed with that girl for hours!" and im just like haha alley yep... Good times good times..

Welp thats about it.. Im gonna try to sleep a lil earlier today to get my schedule back on track..

But before I go... SUCK IT BITCHES



My upcoming shows and Warped tour isnt included!! =) BUT NINE INCH NAILS FLOOR BITCH!! IM so EXCITED!! I love NIN so much !!! Im gonan wet mah pantieS! And yes Meat Loaf.. I might go with my dad but i hate that guy... ILL DO ANYTHING FOR... YOU TO SHUT UP!!! ugh but hey he was cool in fight club :)

Without Wax,
Josh out

Im angry

July 19th (Tuesday) I went to hollywood with my mom and emo... The plan was we would go to hollywood.. I would get a haircut, we would then eat somewhere and then go to Seminole and have some fun losing money.. I got tricked. Ever since I woke up I was tired as all hell.. I fell asleep at the haircut place while my mom and emo was getting a haircut so it was a nice little nap.. Then the lady cut my hair *sniff* After that we went to this place to get some KOREAN FEWD!!



After that just headed home :(

July 20th (wed) Twat teh neighborhood kidz day!! Summer, Jason, the girl of jasons, shibby, jake and I went to Dolphin Mall!! When we first got there we just walked around the mall and ate at the food court.






We then saw Wedding Crashers which was an AWESOME MOVIE!! JAke and I LOVED Wedding Crashers!!!! ITs among our list of movies with Old School and Anchorman.. IT rokked!!

Then we left the movies and we were all heading to the car except jason and his girlfriend because they went somewhere or something for a min. But we were walking towards the car, joking around and laughing n stuff then these 2 cops yell at us and stop us. They asked for our ID's and were just like what?? We were really confused and nervous. Siobhan asked them what it was about and they said they were checking curfew so I was like "oh shit" about Jake and Summer since they were below 18. The cops were about to take Summer and Jake away to the station or something for their parents to pick them up which would be complete BS! But as soon as they were going to take them away here came Jason and the girlfriend and because jason was over 21 they let them go... Uhm GAY! We were really mad about that because theres underage gangsters walking about in the mall and they didnt ask them and heres a couple of us walking to the car to LEAVE and they stop us.. Seriously.. Ok they have to use that whole random thing so its not discrimination but im sorry.. discriminating works.. Fucking idiots if you have to go after a certain crowd to actually catch people then do it. Majority wins

July 21st (thursday) My dad and I went to Applebees, then Best Buy then headed to Seminole to lose money at the casino!! WEE!! We later ate at the Hard rock but 93 rock was there so I was signing this lil survey to get a sticker and while i was signing apparently one of the guys at the booth slapped a sticker on my hat without me noticing.. My dad pointed it out and i thought it was funny lol

July 22nd (Friday) Around 4PM Claudia and Gus came over.. WE bsed in my room and watched the movie Seven. LAter on we headed out to Sunset for absolutely no reason but hey I found the Joy Luck Club dvd for 10 bux so I snatched that~

As for today.. Dalia came voer around 4PM and we talked n stuff for a little and started to watch Joy Luck Club then Abby called... When we were leaving my house to pick up abby I saw dawns car (alleys mom) and I said hi to her for a minute. We then stopped at this mexican store cuz dalia wanted to pick up some candy n stuff lol. After that got Abby n headed home. Watched the rest of the movie and Jake came over.

Abby n Dal left and Jake n I just chilled around some and later on in the night Sam and Oscar came with their computers to LAN. We played CS but I had no food or drinks sowe headed to Wal-Mart. That was fun lol..




I was the only one with money and I wasnt gonna spend much so we bought ghetto soda, ghetto hot dogs, ghetto noodles and ghetto bread for the hotdogs (buns cost more) and to top it all I got the original Night of the Living dead DVD for.. 1 dollah!! Wewt but as we were leaving we saw Dusty, Kori n Mimo in a car getting ready to park.. It was about 2:30 AM at this time.

We went back to my house and made food n drank then played CS for a long ass time. Later on they got bored of CS and started to play BF2 and since I dont have the game n cant run it I played Navy Field a bit. It was about 8 AM at this point where I decided to go in my room and sleep.. Later on everyone came in and crashed. Oscar left in the morning and ihave no idea about sam. Jake and I woke up at about 4PM pwn..

Rant rant rant

Firstly... Movies... I like watching movies as do a lot of people. When someone pays to see a movie at the theatres which is usually between the price of 7 to 9 dollars they expect TO WATCH THE DAMN THING. There is nothing I hate more than people who comment and talk during movies. "OH MY GOD IS HE DEAD?!" "WHAT HAPPENED?!" really... SHUT THE FAK UP!! I will fucking chew off your head if you talk during a movie and so will a lot of others.. so really.. shut your damn yap and talk after it god....

Secondly... more like a self understanding... In a persons teenage years a lot changes, they discover who they are and experience many things which all determines who a person is. This is all done with time. I kind of expect more out of younger people because it seems kids are growing up too fast these days. Even tho they do they just havent gone thru things that you do in years. I was talking to Claudia about someone and how she was fake and just weird n stuff and she said to me "let her grow up"... I dunno that just made me realize were all fakers one point in time because we dont know who we are and go thru phases. I just didnt think about it and expected people to think like my friends who are my age and older.

And mostly.. *sigh*... Now I know what it feels like to be ignored like what I did to Alley and it sucks. I havent heard from Michelle in awehile, I havent spoken to her even by AIM or other sources. The worst thing is shes getting someone to relay messages to me... In 1 case... The other night some tard sent a message to her saying "haha josh likes me" or something like that... Ok seriously whoever did that.. Do you seriously want your fucking ass kicked? Make my situation worse with her why dont you, oh wait you already did. I miss her so damn much and thats not exactly helping my situation. I wake up every morning not sad, melo or anything but damn PISSED. Pissed because of how I lost Michelle and how im never going to have her back. Ok sure theres plenty more fish in the sea and thats totally true but theres not many "fish" that keep me happy. I just want her back.

Without Wax,
Josh out

To start off

As many of us know Matt passed away. And im going to go straight to the point. This is a horrible thing, he was only 16 years old and just a kid with a future way ahead of him but thats all gone. He was not my friend, he was no an associate.. He was someone that was a friends of Mel's that was a complete ASSHOLE to me. Id say hi and hed ignore me.. I try to shake hands hed look the other way.. NEVER gave me eye contact... anything...

Im not going to run around going "OMG HE WAS MY BEST FRIEND!" ... Im seeing that a lot right now and guys.. Thats pathetic.. People that just knew him by name trying to say so much for him when they didnt even know him. If i could take away what happened would I? OF COURSE I WOULD! but im not going to run around and pretend im mourning and say how good of a friend he was when he wasnt.

Friday (July 15th) Ended up going to sunset with Claudia and Gus... And saw someone I totally did not expect.... S... S... STEPHEN!!! Lol was cool seeing him and then..
S... S... SABRINA!!! Cmon look happy sabrina!



After that Claudia, Gus and I saw Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and uhm.. I cant give an opinion on it.. I dont know why.. Its weird lol

Saturday (July 16th) Eric, Jake and I day! We drove around.. Drove around.. Went to Best Buy, Went to Comp USA... WHRE I BOUGHT MY MIC SO I CAN HAVE HAWT CYBER SHCECKS WITH WOOSHY! Then ate at Applebees then went back to my house to watch the greatest movie of all time... Fight Club

Sunday (July 17th) Claudia n Gus came over. We went and picked up someone I havent seen in 2 years... NAOMI!!! Oooooo Ooooo Oooooo NOMI!!!! Oooo Oooo Oooo!!! But yeah we headed to Sunset





We went in gameworks for like... 5 minutes... WEnt to Barnes n Nobles for like... 5 minutes... Then left for my house for like... 3 hours or so and just did whatever then they went home. I SAW NOMI!

Monday (July 18th) TODAY

Day to myself.. I just wanted one

Later Eric, Jake, Jesse, Siobhan and I were outside

And uhm. I made a myspace.. why oh god why.. W/e lol~

Without wax,
Josh out

Saturday (July 9th) In short terms... Went to Sunset with Claudia, Gus and Lorena.. We walked around. Went to Barnes N Nobles and I had to go to the bathroom so I came across this wonderful piece of art



Afterwards Claudia/Gus dropped Lorena and I at Kafe Krystal for the show. Jesse, Eric, Brandon, Mimo, Nick, Kori, Dusty and some others were there. The bands I liked that played there was Dissever and Into the Moat~ Gay ass hardcore kidz

Sunday (July 10th) Dont remember a thing ... It was probably me playing Navy Field all day since thats what I do now.

Monday (July 11th) Was with mom ... Went to dolphin mall ... Not much more to it besides dinner ect.

Tuesday (July 12th) monday night mel called and asked me to come over so i said sure. I havent been there to actually hang out in a LONG time especially since the whole MAJ (Mothers Against Josh - Mels and Michelle's moms being the members) club started.



Anyways I dont remember anything because we just talked and hung out in her room, krystal was in there aswell.. And as Krystal suggested/stated... *sigh* I played with mel's pussy

... ... ... ? lol



Anyways I was there for.. i dunno how many hours.. Meanwhile Eric S. stopped by a few minutes.. Later Matt stopped by... I guess everyone wanted to see mel that day lol...

I left at around 6 or 7 to go out with my mom to eat dinner and go home... Think we did something else but dunno

Wed (July 13th) July 13th =



SOUNDS OF THE UNDERGROUND!

And it was AMAZING!!!
The bands I wanted to see there were Lamb of God (MOSTLY!), Unearth, Poison the Well, Norma Jean, Gwar and a few others. The day was HOT!! OMFG IT WAS HOT!

It was at tinker field, the baseball field next to the orange bowl stadium where I saw Metallica, LP, LB, Mudvayne n Deftones. So it was decent size and there actually wasnt a crap load of people. I thought it was going to be a metal warped tour... not even close. I also thought it was going to be a violent ass show but the people in orlando arent so "hardcore" compared to the kids here.

When we first got there... the guys in Dissever were there lol~ random

Anyways it was hot.. yeah hot.. HOT!!
The first band up was All That Remains, they were pretty kick ass and the Unearth guitarist was filling in for the bass in the band. so that was cool.

Other main highlights were:
Devil Driver!
They were liek the 3rd band who played, they were kick ass aswell... Cept they had THE BIGGEST PIT OF THE DAY!! Or in the fact the biggest pit ive EVER seen. It was so FUCKING AWESOME. The singer goes before this song and says how he wants to see a circle pit and none of those shitty hardcore pitting, and to do that karate elsewhere... So what happened? A HUGE HUGE HUGE CIRCLE PIT! I didnt get any pics of how big it was cuz i was in that sucker but heres a pic of Throwdowns, it doesnt justify how big Devil Drivers pit was



Another was NORMA JEAN!


Theyre always cool :)

And for the best show act of the day... GWAR! During gwar it started to rain which SUCKED! While Gwar was setting up and during the first 2-3 songs of them playing jake and I got to meet the band I wanted to see the most and my favorite metal band.. LAMB OF GOD!!


SUCK IT BITCHES!! AWESOME!!!

After meeting LoG, Jake and I went into to the crowd to watch Gwar.



Man Gwar was awesome to watch. They all wear these big breast suits, masks and big boots.. with a man thong... And they have these slave guys shooting blood into the crowd and have these character fights on stage.. Its all so fun :) At first the new pope came on stage and they cut him and blood went into the crowd!



Then it was great o' Bush and they chopped off his head and blood everywhere again!
And finally this mech warrior thing.. haha that was cool



Gwar ROCKED =)

After them was my 2nd fav. metal band.. UNEARTH!!!



Yes its pictures of only the guitarists.. why? Because HES AWESOME! :) HEs no nice, energetic and just so fun.. hes awesome.. the coolest person in a band ive met. Unearth was amazing, it was my favorite set of the night.. Even more than LoG.. I loved unearth.

Others were okay, jake and I walked around at random times and met some bands :)


Thats All That Remains plus the silver is the Unearth Guitarists/Bassist that filled in


Devil Driver, theyre cool =) I REALLY Liked what he said about the hardcore pits, i hate those...

And the best!

Signatures include all of Lamb of God, Unearth and 2 members of Opeth. The ones from Lamb of God and Unearth are what really excite me.. My 2 favorite metal bands in 1 poster =) OWN!!!

Some later performances liek Poison the Well ... was ok... I like PtW but i dunno they just didnt rock the set. Clutch sucked... The final band was LAMB OF GOD!




They were AWESOME!!! HELL YES!! They played ALL of my favorite songs except maybe 1 or 2 and they were just awesome. There wasnt much pitting, either everyone was tired from the LONG ass day or everyone was intending on watching them play. *shrug* but it was cool =)

Overall the show was LONG, HOT, COLD, TIRING AND KICK ASS.. I loved it.

Afterwards we went to our hotel, i took a shower, went to taco bell, headed back, ate and slept... Well sleeping didnt come so easy... We ended up wrestling, stacking on eachoher, throwing ice at eachother and more.



We were up till like 3 AM throwing ice at eachother lol... I slept in the same bed with Jesse *AHHH!!* It was horrible oh my gawd!! AHHHH HE TRIED TO CUDDLE WITH ME NOOOO!!! But Eric saved me by throwing a bucket of ice at our bed.. oh wait that didnt help.. IT WAS FREEZING. But we slept eventually lol

As for today... Woke up at around 10AM ... We all just kinda layed there going UGHHHHH UGHHHH~~ Esp jake haha.. Jesse did some NASTY shit that I wont mention (sorry eric lol).. Well its not horrible but still.. haha wtf.
We got on the road and went to Golden Coral to eat then afterwards we headed home.. It took us FIVE HOURS TO GET HOME!! Eric took a LONG long road back home haha.. Well im home and it was a lot of fun. Car drive wasnt so fun but hey Eric had to drive so it probly was even less fun for him. Michelle called me during the ride... I wanted to throw my head into the glass or jump out of the car.

And now I get to be emotional.. Dont like it?? FUCK OFF!
Nothings different still ... I feel like crap.


I miss her so much.. Not a night goes by where I just lay there thinking about her. When she had my hoodie for 2 weeks or so, when she gave it to me back it had her scent and that was great.. Even tho I didnt have her I could just bring my hoodie close to me and Id feel as if shes there.. Thats not there anymore. Now all I have is my memory.

a glass heart shattered which was once held in her hands
... ... ...
... ... ... fragile
... ... ...

On random note... Not much random notes.
Im talking to Naomi again every here and there. It'd be cool to see her again.. I was gonna see her at the Krystal show but something came up and she couldnt make it.
One and only~



Alleys coming at the end of the month so maybe ill see her.. I should talk to her shouldnt I O_O But I have my reasons.

Without Wax,
Josh out

... ... ...

July 3rd (Sunday) ORLANDO!!

Went up with my Mom, few others appeared later and we all went to random places like Downtown Disney ect. We stayed at the Marriot World Center again, cool hotel~

July 4th (Monday) Woke up, mom wanted to go swimming.. So we went swimming for awhile. Went back up to the room took a nap then headed out for City Walk where we met up with Mike n Daniel. All in all, we walked around, ate at Jimmy Buffets and watched the fireworks.

It started raining and thundering literally a MINUTE before they were going to start the fireworks so that completely blew. We had to wait almost as hour for it to clear out but thats no complaint because A LOT of people left and we got out of the garage in less than 10 minutes compared to being stuck there for 2-3 hours 2 years back.

July 5th (Tuesday) Travel back home. My heel got really screwed up. I guess I pulled it REALLY bad so when I got home I just slept.

July 6th (Wed) Couldnt do anything so I slept the entire day. Thought about things. Played NAVY FIELD <3 <--- x10 !!! and geetah. Day to myself

July 6th (Thursday) Claudia, Gus, Oscar, Jake, Bob n Eric came over. We watched Kids which was haha interesting then after Claudia n Gus left we started prank calling people. Some people we called were Becca, Katie R, Katie n Amy. Becca stayed with us and wouldnt hang up.. It was funny. Eric did all the talking for this. Amy was hilarious, at first she hung up and Eric kept calling back and it eventually got into a "conversation" and her trying to figure out who it was. It ended up on AIM and we were sending her random pics we were taking on the webcam.

We also called Kris and he got mad. Fgt

After that, watched some animal house. Everyone went home and I talked to Mel on the phone.

I was really bummed out in the beginning of the day and just needed a HUG and when claudia and gus came over I got a big one from Claudia and that made me feel better.

I lost Michelle for good now. I guess she hates me or something ... ... I dont know this is just all BS. I hate this all. If the opportunity came where I could be with her I would take that faster than a heartbeat. I miss her so much. All I wanted is to be with her and be happy and make her happy in return and I did that when we were with eachother. But when we were forced apart and I wasnt able to see her or even damn well talk to her openly it got really hard and I got hard on her to do something about it. Ugh it horrible to just sit here and being able to do anything about it. This all sucks.

And for the record I can say anything I damn well please on here. I can be as emotional, bitchy, happy and everything else as much as I want. ITS MY WEBSITE. If I wanna say how Kris is the most arrogant, stubborn and unlearning person ive ever meant I can say it. If I want to say how im hurt I can say it. I prefer not to do the "bottle it up inside" technique because that does some serious shyt to you and this is a way of release. Even tho theres only 1 person who even mentions anything about it... But his opinion is more worthless than those people in the movie Kids.. and I consider them a waste of life, sad thing is ... Theres actually people like that. Sigh.. Send them all to Australia or something.. Well take the Australians, theyre ok.

IGNORANT PEOPLE TO AUSTRALIA!! START THE MOVEMENT!! + Kris~

Without Wax,
Josh out

you always amazed me
but thats the past
i kept silent and it rained for days
my inside were drenched
but i guess that's the part of growing up
i never wanted to learn
and i grew into the man
that you never knew
but i wouldn't be this way
if it wasn't for you
100 thank you's
it this is love
fairy tales never came true
judies are black in full bloom
and i died in the womb
take it back, all that's gone
it's all still there like you left it
december stayed the same
nothing ever changed but you
every dream covered in dents
love can't fly tonight
couples will rest, i'll be sleepless
so cry yourself to sleep
this is about broken hearts
this is about me
bending again for nothing
i'd run to you but pain awaits
i'm coming home
but i'll be late
no deeper than imagination can be
sight with nothing to see
what's faith if i can't believe
it's everything
a cure, but i make it a disease
God take me because i hate me

Due to circumstances beyond our control, we are very sorry to announce that we will be canceling the remainder of our headlining tour with the exception of the following shows:

DAMNIT THIS SUCKS!! That would be Say Anything.. Im going to Orlando primarily to see Say Anything because they are like one of my FAVORITE bands but the lead singer got a panic attack and is in the hospital in texas. THIS SUCKS!!! UGH!!! Some other people are suffering too down ehre because of it.. You fukkahs wouldnt know them if it wasnt for me!! <-- Haha that was lame

But enough of that.. Im going to cry.. im so disappointed ER ENOUGH!

June 28th (Tuesday)

Dentist appointment!

I had to get a minor filling. We got there at around 2PM and my mom woke me up early for this and well... We were there an hour early.. That got me mad cuz i couldve SLEPT! But my Mom and I walked to the comp store and I looked at cameras n stuff. Went back a lil later for my appointment. It took like a total of ... 5 minutes to do. That was insane, second I went in a few moments later I go out and am just "wtf? 200+ $ for that?" but hey im not paying for it lol.

Afterwards Mike showed up and we walked around Dadeland Mall and had lunch at Cheesecake Factory. After that just went back home. Im forgetting things but owell.

June 29th (Wed) I dont remember a damn thing... O_O

June 30th (Thursday) Rudy came at around 2:30 and picked me up with Edwin. I havent seen those 2 since school ended but we headed to Dirlys house. We just chilled there, others arrived soon like Dirlys bro Gabby who is cool and Emily, Megan, KT and Richard. Chilled and talked some more.

We were kind of bored so we headed to my house. I was just like ok w.e~
Claudia, Gus, Eric, Jake and Summer arrived when we got to my house.





I havent had a number of that many people over in awhile. It wasnt even much but hey we just kinda sat around .. Nothing too exciting except the prank calling heh lol

When everyone left Eric wanted to go for a drive so Summer, Eric, Jake and I went for a ride. We went to random random places around here and random random roads. We then went to McDonalds. Eric was going to treat us just for this one time and we OWED him. So we went up to the mic and we all ordered our food and until we got to the window we were just joking around in the car. We get to the window and eric pulls out his wallet and says "Have a nice night" and drives off... HE TRICKED US! lol

Went back home and everyone went to their homes. Jake and I played CS all night and met some cool people like WOOSHY! I poo on your lawn!

July 1st (Friday) New month... Joy? Not really, life goes by too fast.

I just kinda wanted an alone day. My dad came home from Texas yesterday so thats cool. But yeah I just kinda wanted to stay home, I had some things on my mind. That plan worked until later in the night Jason, Siobhan, Jake, Summer n I went to Sunset to see Land of the Dead. That was fun :) I heard mixed things about the movie but I liked it. Romero doesnt exactly make the best movies but he has a certain silly style to his movies and he kept that style probly knowing it wouldnt be the best thing for the audience but he did what he wanted to. I enjoyed it actually

YUM YUM YUM!

After that went to Wendys for some food and while in the drive thru jasons breaks fall in. That SUCKED! So uhm... We waited outside Wendys from 12AM till 3AM !!! We were waiting for the AAA tow truck so yeah we waited a long ass time. Jasons mom arrived and waited with us. But its okay we all talked and joked around, the time went by fast and it was fun. Plus I get to blog about it. =p

Got home and played more CS till too late with Jake

TODAY!

I woke up really late.. Really late.. Like 5 PM late.. Thats late..

Later ERic, Mel n Jake came over and we watched Hide and Seek. It sucked. And uhm they left not too long ago.

Simple enough. Now I get to rant.

~Not really a rant but the Mel and I thing about us being friends is going well so thats cool. Get to hang out with her every now n then almost like before.

~I really miss Michelle. I got to hear her voice a little since she came back from Chicago a few days ago. Nothings changing with her mother. I feel like letting go but I cant. I just try not to think about it during the day so it doesnt bring me down but every now and then it pops in out of nowhere and it really blows. When I was at Dirlys house we talked about Michelle alittle and they kept referring her as my girlfriend and that sucked. Sigh

~I dont usually do a specific rant on a specific PERSON but he just asked for it. SORRY Kris but uhm no. I'll give some credit for posting an "apology" on my website but it might have worked a little better if it was sincere. You learn important lessons from watching Veggie Tales such as FORGIVE EVERYONE! But I cant forgive him! FORGIVE HIM! GOD WOULD! F-O-R-G-I-V-E! Sadly that isnt the case. Its not very good when its my decision to forgive someone for things that have been done to others aswell but in this case... Forgiveness is something to be earned when a hole has been dug that deep.

Lets see... when a person gives an apology when he has NO IDEA what hes apologizing about that just kinda gives me a giggle. Yes im sorry for uhhh uhmm something im sorry forgive lets hang out! No? Ive done that before.. Yes im going to bring you back into everything so you can go out and backstab and talk crap behind peoples back.. Especially mine.. Sorry bud you fucked up and not just with the incident but with a whole lotta things... That just topped it off. Enjoy your hole and its still getting deeper by the day from the things you say and do even now. Ciao

Well tomorrow im going to Orlando for a few days but I WONT BE SEEING SAY ANYTHING WHAT THE HELL!?!?!? OMG My luck SUCKS! First the singer for Something Corporate who I was SUPER EXCITED to see at warped tour and now another one of my favorite bands im going to miss because of illness. Ugh im gonna go Jesus on these biatches and heal them. Andrew? *touches forehead* CANCER GONE! Max? *Slap* NO MORE PANIC ATTACKS!

Some of you have heard the croaking in my house from a certain pot in the past week and weve all been going "what the hell is that!?" But last night while playing CS I heard it very very VERY faintly and I got pissed off and I wanted to find out what it was so I took that pot apart and found this lil guy



That lil froggie has been in there for over a week going CROAK CROAK CROAK! and it was still alive so I was like WHAO~. I felt so bad for the lil guy I actually set it free cuz it was such a tough thing. That doesnt mean I wont stop kicking frogs tho. *Stares at golf clubs and gets a strange new idea*

I got bored one night and copied n pasted all the text in my posts (just the text, no pics) and it ended up to being 187 pages printed out. Wewt I almost have a novel of just as jake stated: "Today we went to sunset" and "rant, complain, bitch" Hoora!~

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Ive actually been kind of lazy with these because I actually just sit here and close my eyes and type any random memory that pops in my head. But sometimes it takes awhile for something random to go in my head.

26: Return of the Jedi
I saw the first 2 movies and I liked them so sometime I went to Best Buy I got the Return of the Jedi tape and I watched it at home with my mom and dad for the first time. I loved it

27: Last Day of School
At either 1st or 2nd grade. It was the last day of school or school ending soon and it was play time and I got sent to a corner for doing something. The corner was at this fence and there was this Bee flying around without me knowing and it stung me in my eyelid.. That sucked a lot. I didnt get to say bye to Ashley Garcia and Bryant Quick who were close to me at that time. I didnt see Bryant for years till he came to Princeton and didnt see Ashley till I went to South Dade. We were hardly hello friends at that point.

28: One Eyed Korean
Dealing with above. After the sting my eye was really swollen up and I could obviously only see with one eye. I felt like a freak and didnt want to go out anywhere or have anyone see me. I even begged my mom for an eye patch like a pirate because I was so embarressed about it. People didnt like me at the time anyway, having one eye swollen wouldnt help but I coudlnt have an eye patch because my eye needed to breathe.

29: Alleys House
When I knew Alley as just girl...(Maybe around 10 or younger?) Jake had to go to her house for a few minutes and I was with him. I dont remember too much but I was really uncomfortable there or something and wanted to leave really bad. *Shrug* Maybe Alley scared me AH HA ohh J/K

30: Left Behind
It was 7th or 8th grade at Princeton. In spanish class there was a field trip but I forgot my signature paper to allow me to go so I coudlnt go. So I had to sit in the smart kids class of my grade during Bible class. I just sat there staring at some homework I had to do. I didnt look up once because I felt so inferior, someone even asked me a question or said something to me but I just shrugged.

Without Wax,
Josh out